digress & obsess [v2]

aaaaah.  someone pls pls pls buy me a nicotine patch.  now that im under unduly pressure to complete my fucking portfolio shitfolio for mr clive. wothisname?

aaah. stress betul!!! im subsisting on a daily diet of red bull and sampoernas that are givin me worse headachey’s than the hangover i had on my 19th bday.  ma hai lat.  really hai lat lor. 

not that bad dat.  im almost done on one portion of my impressionist paintings. so hopefully il be able to post the fucking thing online for him to assess.  bllueewwarp.  art hopfull?!  at least better than mugging for linear algebra init?  geeesh.  im waiting for that long awaited pre planned trip to langkawi for more more more sun. more beach more breeze and er. yea. well yea. ok. 

im completely i repeat my lovelies. completely. brain dead.  i mean i never knew rushing some art work was gonna drive me up the walls bouncing up and down and smokin like a frickin fa hai.  one pack down in 1.5 days. thats pretty bad for an amateur. wheres my fucking nic patch. i need one now.

im stress.ed  im paranoid that if i hunch over my work any fucking longer, my fucking breasts are gonna start sagging.  i wanna be all perk and pert.  i miss my babehs so fucking much.  i miss james and alan and david and khe yee!!! i want to cry.  but that would make my mascara drip and itchy-fy my eyes.  joh!!! teruk sial. 

ok. but apart from all this colour and graphite pieces that are making me colour blind and geddiky respectively. im so happy im finally doin sumth i love, and fucking anal and cocky abt.  ya sorry la shoot me lor.  its awesome i tell you ppl.  looking at that glass over a print doesnt look like that no more.  its awesome. 

so?  you are wondering wot happened to all the moaning abt guys.  wot happened to pingy?  joh! no time la.  no life already wanna have a healthy sex life. sorry la.  not anytime soon.  im laying of the ding dongs and ridic encounters and hahaha’s over too much alcohol.  gotta give all of that a break.

need to complete my cheri solo upgradin plan so that i never ever ever forever have to lower my standards ( kerana lonely ok dudes!)  like i did over easter and the whole of fucking summer.  simmer. no more.  haiah.  the guys are always there la.  and right now most of them are probably satisfying their carnal appetite and devouring girls faster than yaw can down that bottle of jd.  fine. go bah. london easy to do. run away and hide all summer and  balik kampung also can. like uve been doin all along.  get std dun la come and cry and sembahyang non-stop.  simisai dei. 

right.  i make a public apology for my vocab and my low par engrand!!

im really worked up over my work.  il shut up now.

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